Madonna/Whore Part 8 (aka Attachment Therory)

[Heywyre]

Right now I am feeling too overwhelmed to post anything. I still frequent the boards just to keep up to date on the happenings but my own personal life I feel is on hold to some degree until H goes to see this new therapist on the 21st of the month. There has been so much that has happened between the two of us in the past month that I just want to block it all out for the time being

My life has been a turmoil of emotions since my brother was in hospital and has now come to live with us. There is a possibility he will be for a while, maybe a year, but I can't see anything under 6 months. We have had some wonderful conversations, a lot of laughter and a lot of tears. My brother has no clue but he has been my strength the last few weeks he has been here. I do not need to burden him with my problems but he knows my personal relationship with H is strained - he does not need to know details at this time. I need to be there for him as much as possible and just deal with things one day at a time

I have "let go of the rope" so to speak, with regard to my M. I can no longer carry the burden of "fixing" things. It is up to H to do what needs to be done to salvage this R, and a big part will depend on his meeting with the new therapist at the end of next week. I have my good and bad days but am trying to remain as neutral as possible through all of this. My life is basically on hold for at least 6-12 months while I help my brother get back on his feet and try and GAL myself.