Okay, I am so confused. I know that I need to stop analyzing everthing that H is doing or saying. But it is soooo damb hard not too.
I think that I am letting H pull me into his confused mind. I am really trying to fight that but that is hard too.
I went out last night with SIL. H was at her house with BIL. H called me.
H: what are you doing? M: standing here H: where you at? M: at the "O" H: well BIL said to call you and tell you to just come up here M: well isn't SIL coming down here? H: I thought she changed her mind because it rained? (we were going to a street dance) M: no I just talked to her and she said she was coming H: oh, well why don't you just come up here? M: I don't know we'll see H: well, okay talk to you later etc...
SIL did come to dance. 15 min later H drives by. Looking straight ahead and very pissed. He called D 2 times sounding mad and questioning her at what time she was to be home and junk that didn't make much sense.
It's like one moment he's madder than hell at me, hates me, is sure that it's over. Then there are tiny glimpses of maybe not...
I really hate all that is right now...
And I really miss my H.
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
