I tried not to get caught up in the moment last night. Hard lessons have taught me to use lots of caution when dealing with H. Today he might be back with OW and forget that he even called me last night (not likely, but ..)
Other things come to mind this morning that he said: He tried to get me to drive to his house last night so that he could just "hold" me again.
At one point he asked me if I was involved with anyone else. He was on his cell phone and it was just that moment that our connection was dropped so I didn't have to answer. (Between us, I haven't even thought about dating again .. but H doesn't have to know that!) H called right back, but didn't ask the question again.
Angelica, hindsight, my H liked it when I showed spunk and anger toward him. I suppressed my natural inclination to fight back for a long time because I thought that patience and understanding (recommended for normal MLC) would work. But H followed a different script. Instead of appreciating my patience with him, he disrespected me for it. His mom is a very weak woman and never stood up for herself, so that might be the reason.
He told me last night that he admired me for finally standing up and knocking him down (in court). Instead of being angry about the awful names I called him recently, he secretly respected me for it. That's why he was laughing about the colorful adjectives I had been hurling at him lately. He liked it. Go figure.
I'm putting our conversation of last night on the back burner. I'm not going to dwell on it. If H continues to move forward and continues to show respect and honesty to me, then there is a good chance that we can slowly begin a new, different type of relationship. If not, then I'll continue on the new path that I've already begun.
His call gave me a sense of closure last night, though, and I will take that with me whichever way I go.
