Like we never loved before 4

[bright 2 morro]

It has been a while since I have posted or visited the boards. I have stopped by to read but I have not posted. It has been a time of soul searching and finding me and happiness. I know that I am not fully there yet but I am much closer.

I have started to get interest in things I used to do. I have actually also started to do some of those things. That is a sign that I am getting better and that I am moving on with my own life. The only not so good feelings that I have are that I am starting to want to see what other fish in the sea there are. I want to stand for my marriage but what if it never really comes back to what I want. I know that is a possibility. And I am ok with that. Because I know now that I will be ok without him and that I do deserve better than what I have now. I am actually starting to like myself and realize that I am a great person and deserve to be treated like I am this type of person.

As far as things with my H. Things have gotten much better. We are really trying not to argue with each other. And when he is not in a good mood I am trying really hard not to react to him. I have realized what reacting does to my body and I can not keep doing that. He is trying to find the source of his unhappiness and figure out what will make him happy.

I only have to hope that he figures it out sooner or later because like I said I am moving on with my own life and feeling better about it and myself. I may out grow him and this marriage before he figures it out. But that would not be my problem that would be his.

I am in control.

Thank you to everyone here for the support and help.