Thanks Hope.. I'm not sure what to do differently that I haven't already done. But, the deep sharing of myself is a 180. Maybe, after his initial shock, H will be supportive of me. I don't know.. could go either way. He's downright miserable right now. He says he doesn't know whether to stay or go. The guilt and shame of what he has done is destroying him and yet he won't stop contact w/ow. But, like you said.. SOMETHING has to change or I might go crzy!!!