I guess the party ended rather quickly...I was tired an d fell sleep quite early for a Friday.
Journaling:
Last night when H came to pick up the girls I was blow drying my hair when I noticed my very sad looking H behind me trying to get my attention to say hi. I turned to look at him and I felt so bad it was almost like heis body language was telling me he wanted ahug. He was acting somewhat weird? kinda moving his arms out to me, or maybe he was only trying to get me to turn around. Oh but what a sad look:( I hurt for him but I didnt want to show it.
Even though I was not goign anywhere & had no feinds to see,I acted as if I was. H made a smart remark that I brushed of something to the fact of where u going? and then some sexual remark of me and my freinds gonna go do a booby dance? ANYHOW, I ignored (getting good at that) and then he said- No really I am just asking where are you going? I said just gonna go hang out w/ people from work. I was goign to get something to eat bymyself.,but he didnt need to know that. You see he knows I dont know too many people and my closest freind moved out of state. So when a while back I told him I had become quite the scail butterfly (which he didnt beleive at first) he said oh that wont last! His sadness went to anger when he couldnt find one of the girls footbal cheerleader tops and was yelling at me. I said calmy I dont know its been forever since theyve worn it.
As he was storming to leave I hollered to him have a good weekend!
Rememeber he was only going to have the girls for Saturday only even though this is his weekend b/c as he said if I have plans w/ my "BF" the I would have to find my own sitter. But when I told him I had "called it quits" /w my "BF" he changed his tune & said he could keep them all weekend if I wanted.
