That was such a lovely post for me to find this morning; thank you. I appreciate the support. You, also, have been equally inspiring to me.
It is true that we do need to let go of so many things that are associated with the crisis. I suppose it would help for me to focus on that viewpoint rather than let the selling of our house bring me down. There were happier days there; those are what I think about from time to time lately. How did we go from sitting around a crackling fire, cuddling and talking, to this?
I tried counseling way back in the beginning. I did it for a month but I don't think it really helped (I don't think anything could have at the time). It might be time to revisit this avenue to help me sort some things out. Thank you for the suggestion.
I do journal (I am up to probably #8 since this all began!). I have kept the books in a chest, tucked away. I never re-read them, but I know they are there: 2 years' worth of pain, written out on pages. But writing it all down as it was happening was very helpful to me.
He should receive the letter (the printed out email) soon. I wonder if he will ever mention it to me? It was not sent in spite; I just thought he should see how he was back then, since he cannot seem to recall.
I'll try to remember to keep the focus on myself, the healing (oh, it takes a LONG time, doesn't it?) and having a happy future.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
