donna, you aren't done, you still do want a chance with your H...if you were done, you wouldn't care if you still had a chance with him. its okay to want to be with your H, but as hard as it is (and it is so freaking hard), try to get the focus off of him, off of how you acted in the past. go forward. move forward. who knows, maybe he'll be back, maybe he won't, but as long as you are moving forward and getting the focus on yourself as an individual, you have a better chance of a happy life (with or without him).
I don't mean to sound cavalier here...trust me, I know very, very well just how hard this all is. I do the same thing at times. but I know when I feel the best and when things seem to go the best in my life, is when I am keeping that focus on moving myself forward.
good luck!
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
