I just dropped in to see if any old friends were still posting and found your thread.
You have always been so full of life and determination not to let the MLC monster beat you, so it was a little surprising to find you in a more sombre mood. And then I thought to myself, why is it surprising? Doh, Jaybee.
You have worked your socks off to get where you are today and maybe you are just exhausted, not only physically, but mentally and emotionally. Now that you have achieved your goals, that exhaustion can finally express itself perhaps.
So just be good to yourself for a while, cut yourself a little slack, and have a rest!
And if that doesn't do the trick, maybe visit the doc?
I'm so glad you have a good T and a wonderful man in NG.
FWIW, I still get occasional times of sadness and small bursts of anger towards my xh too.
I tell myself, that's ok Jaybee, you are a human being, not a saint!
With love
Jaybee xxxx
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers
