Hey G, I like the change in your attitude ... you're starting to sound more optimistic, keep focusing on you and your life. It's great that you have plans to take care of yourself, perhaps it would help you to you set some smaller steps/goals which would guide you on the way. (maybe you could come up with some DB goals in the same time ... I just couldn't resist the urge to say that ) Keep it up, we're here to help you
... I just couldn't resist the urge to say that 
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