"She still insists that her relationship with OM did not occur ( implying it would not have happened otherwise) until I killed her love for her. I get the feeling from W that her obstinate (semi-admitted) lack of forgiveness means she is unlikely to ever recognize the error in her judgment."
Replace "she" with "he", and I could have written your post. I am so sorry. Its awful to feel so unloved. Hurts so much.
