well that was weird, I typed a whole post out on my last thread, hit submit, and my topic locked w/o posting it...and the whole thing I typed out was lost to the ether. very very strange.
in an nutshell, I tried to have a good cry after I posted my previous post. I did. even got my wedding album out of hiding so I could go thru it and have a good wallow. had just started in when my sister called...cried a bit to her, chatted, hung up, friend called, then another and before I knew it, I was feeling much, much better. thanks, ladies.
just watched the pilot of arrested development...very funny show, looking forward to the rest of it over the next couple of months.
called the kids to say goodnight and they were so cute, it put a huge smile on my face. even h sounded okay...both of us sound fine again, not irritated, almost like a storm that didn't properly develop passed on by. nothing has changed in reality, but I feel like I'm okay again at least. and will continue to be okay.
he did ask about my plans for the weekend, and I did sort of tell him (home chilling tonight, out with a friend tomorrow night). I need to stop that again, wasn't really thinking when I told him. the "no talking about social lives" works for me, so no more.
going to take it easy the rest of tonight, then tomorrow its back to the gym, some housework, a home depot run, then out into the city with a friend of mine. really looking forward to that...I need a good night out.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
