I called the house today to talk to D11. I wanted to go get her tomorrow and spend some time together. Her Dad answered. He was home because yesterday evening, she fell in the yard and they ended up in the emergency room. She's on crutches. Her ankle is sprained. How long do you suppose it would have been til I found out had I not called? It would have been never. I didn't say anything about that though. It's just what I feel. Anyway, I asked to talk to her after telling Jeff my plans for tomorrow...I heard her saying "no" so I gathered she did not want to talk to me. So I told him that was fine, I wasn't forcing her. He handed her the phone anyway. I told her I had heard her saying she didn't want to talk to me and that was fine. I had made plans for us but I am not going to make her talk to me or anything else and she said okay so I said bye.
I am so sick of this. I haven't even done anything but try to make sure she took care of the stuff her Dad won't insist upon. I don't want to do this anymore. If they don't want me around why should I force myself on either of them? For that matter, all friggin 3 of them can just have a blast next weekend at S14's party. I had all kinds of fun stuff planned for D and her friend but my heart's not in it anymore. Anytime she is nice or acts like she loves me it's because I'm doing something she wants me to do. I don't even know why I try. And if it sounds like I'm being a cry-baby, well tough sh*t. This part hurts more than I can take. I've always been very close to both of my kids and now one doesn't even want to talk to me.
