Dave if you are giving it your best, then no one can expect anymore out of you. You need to do what you feel is right for your S and more importantly for you. I respect you for the decision you made. I do not regret pushing for the S in my own M. I miss the hell out of my wife daily, but I do not miss how we were. We are enjoying each other more now, then we had over the past 2-3 years. I feel for me and my W we would never have gotten out of the rut we were in and in to a position we are now, to rebuild our R, if we would have not separated.
“Do you want to be RIGHT or want to be LOVED” “You have to have a life to share a life with someone” “When you stop resisting, you start learning”