I know Yoyo. I think I was insane for a while. I can remember talking to my psychiatrist while I had my usual doctor at my bedside who wanted to sign my committal form and my psychiatrist explained to me over and over again that I was going to lose my kids if I got committed and that I had to promise not to harm myself anymore. I did promise although I have to admit that twice after that I cut myself, not to kill myself, but because the pain caused by cutting dulled the emotional pain inside. I know now that it was stupid but somehow at the time it made sense. Those days were just so dark. The memories still make me cry. Everyone had always considered me so strong until then. Perhaps that was my problem - my family always came to me with their problems and one day I just couldn't cope anymore what with their problems and my marraige.

At least most of it looks rosier these days.

Saffie

Saffie
me 46
H 46
M in 1986
D20,D18,S16,D13
H's A 01/05 to 07/06
H recommitted to M 07/06
renewed vows 09/06
Going from strength to strength