Okay, you blew it, but you know that. You're such a smart guy. You KNOW so much. What's stopping you from doing it?
I wonder if you think if you just keep telling her how different you are, how angry you're not, how much responsibility you take, she'll get it.
You're an organizer, aren't you? Do you make lists? spreadsheets for projects? You've got a great intellectual handle on this stuff. You've done so much work, and you so want her to see you the way you see you now. But you keep acting differently from what you're claiming about yourself. Have you changed enough that you trust it's obvious? I'm not convinced.
