That's exactly what I mean and I'm not at all proud of it. I was completely unhinged and my children saw me cutting myself. My arms were a mess for quite a while. But do you know what, my H was more upset when I cut myself across my chest than when I did my wrists - that should tell me something shouldn't it.
I was heavily drugged for a year after that but I have managed to get off all the ante depressants now. I still get some low days but they are getting fewer and fewer and truly my H has been very supportive and is extremely sorry for his part in it all. He never really new how bad I was. I had once tried to take an overdose shortly before he told me about his A but I called a friend and she and my doctor hid it from my H. I didn't know my H was having an A but I knew something was terribly wrong. It's why I still go for counselling now even though things seeem a lot better. I cannot afford to slip back for my children's sake.
Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
