My wife went to see the OM last night. When she got home she imediately got in the shower. It seemed suspicious when she had showered that morning. She also used "summer's eve". This is why I want to die because I stooped to the point where I checked her underwear she had put in the bottom of laundry basket. Everyone can think I'm crazy but they had alot of fresh stains and they smelled like when a women gets HIGHLY excited. She keeps denying anything with this OM but I had to know. I wanted to confront her so bad but I'm afraid telling her how I know would push her further away. Should I tell her or keep quiet? Could there be an explaination for it? Like I said, I am 44 yrs old, I could die in a car accident and be gone, so I still struggle if it's worth hanging on in misery, etc. How many more years do I have anyways I think sometimes. I just don't know what to do
