Mer,

You still make me laugh. Even with all of this serious stuff. I just am constantly amused over how your mind works.

Thank you for the Goals. P.S., Please call me Pam. I thought we were closer than that. What is this "CMNM" sh!t? \:\)

You broke that down wonderfully. I think it will take time, but this is all very doable. Of course, as always, I am the lone wolf here (or the "one wolf"...did anyone ever see that Laverne and Shirley episode? But I digress...)

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Did I mention our 6 months of therapy? Wonderful stuff this time!

Got a name of a good therapist do ya? Mine was a wanker, as you recall. \:\)

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we can all use a little practice in being disappointed

Um, with all due respect... I think that I have gone pro here. Can I cut down my practice time???

I can see that goal #3 is going to be kind of problematic. Right now stating how I feel is not a good thing to do.
Unless, of course, I am feeling happy. Or sexy. Or horny. (TMI?) \:\)

Expressing anger brings more anger back at me.
Expressing that I feel belittled brings even more. Do I not know how belittled he felt for many years???? (him speaking)
Expressing confusion brings yet more anger. "You are a smart girl, Pamela. Why do you act so stupid when it comes to this?"

So, perhaps goals 1 & 2 are in my immediate future for now.

And, now, we interrupt this program for more of this:
Damn! I have missed you!