Thanks for the encouragement neph, My husband and I still have joint checking accounts and I take care of all the finances so we need to talk for that. He doesnt call very often. i had to call him this AM to tell him that I have the check for his truck payment and he needs to get it and take it to the bank. I made sure to sound very upbeat and happy and laughed several times on the phone. I mentioned nothing about the R or the OW. He supposed to come over tonight to discuss finances but I told him I was going out and wouldnt be able to talk long. I told him I got home late last night and he inquired as to where I was. I told him I just went out with someone didnt say who or where. (I made it up to try and make him jealous) I wrote him a letter that is advised in a book by Dr James Dobson. Basically stating that I have been going through a hard time and I know I cant hold him in this marriage I didnt force him to marry me and I cant force him to stay and that I am trusting God to help him make the right decisions and I am letting go and letting God. I hope this doesnt backfire on me. Anyone have any thoughts as to whether I should give it to him or not? All it basically says is that I am letting go and I respect him and his decisions. Should I leave it for him or not? Im so confused.