There really are no familiar names here any more, althought Stoic ont he surface has reappeared, writng to others. Others have just probably died on the vine, or succumbed.
D16 is at home from school visiting for about 4 days, so W. will fall head over heels to make it work, and good for her. The atmosphere is usually super tense between them. I sent W. an email telling her that I hope the visit went well, and wished her luck.
W. used to blame either her unhappiness in the marriage or the tenseness between her and me......now what?
I can't worry about it right now. I go between thinking I'll be fine if this doesn't work out to the polar extreme of how horrible it will be to be alone......Nights, weekends...you all know. We used to have such fun as a family! (At least I thought so)
I'm surrounded by great people that I've spent the last 8 months with, with none of the interactions with W., so it's fairly easy now, but going home in 10 months........eh?
The highest ranking chaplian in the Army spoke here today. A major general. His advice was "Never Give Up". I wished I had not been working. It seemed perfect. It's based on the fact that suicides are going up here. Not dramatically, but enought to concern people.
