mk, they started their affair last october, I didn't find out until last march (yep, dense dense dense). so even though the timeline is much shorter for me with all this, my H has, in reality, been in a year long relationship with OW.
not sure where you see he loves me even 50%. I think a lot of the good that he does isn't out of love, its out of guilt. or co-dependent panics. but not love...he's told me flat out that he isn't in love with me anymore, and that he doesn't want me to be in love with him anymore. ouch. I know most of us get the ILYBNILWY speech, but it really feels like he means it.
and gross on that book. seriously.
okay, neph, I'm not going to push the issue. I am, however, going to ask about the car payment...nicely. it could be that he doesn't know how the payments will be (bill or coupon book) so that is why he didn't answer. its still early days yet, likely there isn't a payment due yet, maybe will get stuff in the mail this week. who knows. as for the filing, I know I need to accept that what will be will be. It just would have been easier a couple of weeks ago before all the grabby-hands stuff. don't get me wrong, it would have been hard as hell, but I admit I took the other stuff as way too much a possibility of hope.
enough about him. enough.
am off to the gym after dropping S5 at kindergarten. going to have a good w/o and clear my mind a bit.
Last edited by morgan; 09/14/0710:48 AM.
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