We I think I have finally made a break through with myself, I know no matter what happens I will come through this a stronger and better person. I am still very sad but the anger has pretty much gone. I had talk with my C yesterday about my need to “keep kicking the dog” as my C put it, every time he sent an email asking about something I was cold as, now I am nice and polite but indifferent – detachment maybe. What ever happens I do not want to carry anger and resentment around with me, also I would hate to have to cross the street to avoid him later on.
Anyways we had a nice 10 min phone conversation yesterday, and he is coming over on Monday to do his washing, I have decided I will not be here, I may be here when he comes in but then I am off to work.
