Got an offer on a listing of mine and was VERY excited so I called H to let him know. He volunteered that he still wasn't sure about the weekend. So I asked what causing the blockage. he told me that there might be one last 'hoorah' raft trip (read beer float) on Saturday, but it kinda looked like not very many people were interested in going; but he wasn't sure and he would call me tomorrow to let me know. I was cool about it. Having said that- I wish that he would have invited me. The beer float has been a bone of contention for us; One time long ago he invited me and I declined. After he decided he was going to move out this summer, (but still lived here) he went on a beer float trip and I did tell him that I was disappointed that I didn't get to go; that I had looked forward to finally going. Granted, it was awhile ago, but still. Oh, alright, its not the trip; it's that I am still being excluded from that part of his life. I don't know *why* (given that he kept me separate from that part of his life before) I would expect that *now* would be different, I just had hoped to see some forward movement in that department. *Especially* since his big complaint is that we don't do things with groups of friends. This would have been a GREAT opportunity. Why in the heck is it always ME that has to come up with the friends?! Gah!!!!
I wish there was some sort of non-pressuring, non-pursuing way to bring up this subject. On the one hand, he tells me that we need to "communicate more" but I have a feeling that this wouldn't qualify as communicating...but then what the F *is* "communicating"?!?
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
