Well haven't been able to get on since she does not have a computer and mine hasn't moved over to her place yet. Well she is some what doing the ol back tracking to a degree. I have been by her choice sleeping on the sofa since the first couple nights because of her confusion. Have not even gotten a hug or a kiss since then. I am back to feeling like a roommate, but not giving up, just giving her time to re-adjust to me being here all the time, this is tough, but still a big step in the right direction. We have our first MC appointment next wednesday, hopefully that will be the beginnings of the next step.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
When I registered, you were in the dark and hadn't talked to your W in 2 weeks (I think if I remember correctly). You always seemed so patient and focused. I have had you in the back of my mind through out my struggles. You are such an inspiration. I'm so happy for you. You've come so far! Keep up the good work. Your W is one lucky woman. I'm so happy for your S too!
Me29 H33 D9 months S2 S9(previous R) Sep 8-19-07 I file 11-5-07 H home (Retro) 2-15-08 "Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9
Oh how I know that now, what really sucks is that in a way I think I was in a better frame of mine DB'ing when we were actually physically apart. Being together everyday with the turmoil is much harder, but oh well, I lasted 6 months apart without much hope at all so this is still a big step forward.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
789 - you are an inspiration. I know you can do it. You are back home and not apart anymore so that has to be a good sign. Maybe she is having some confusion since you moved back together so quickly. I am sure the MC will be able to help you two work though all of this.
Well I have now been back for 2 weeks, haven't moved over to piecing yet because I don't think we are at that stage even with me being back. Since that first night I am still on the sofa and have not heard a peep from her about anything. It is getting so frustrating that I have at times seriously thought about going back to my own apartment. I actually feel that I am not really here and it is a nightmare that I am having while sleeping. I guess what really gets me is that she is the one who asked me to come back, not any prodding or pushing by me. I think at the moment it is doing nothing but hurting our son because I can tell he is really confused by me being back but sleeping out by myself, he even asks me daily why I am not sleeping in bed and why doesn't mom talk to me, how the heck do you answer questions like that to an 8 year old. Just ranting and getting my frustrations out for the moment.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
October 12th is the next one in our area, I already sent an email for the info. It isn't even the sex I am worried about, I just would like to feel that I really exist in her world, if that makes sense.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
