Hi BI, Always & Cat,
I have been off the boards for about a year, have hit a rocky patch and have come running back.

BI, While I am so sorry to hear that your H is still having self esteem problems, I am happy to hear that you are still together.

Always, I haven't found your post yet though you refer to your H as your husband so I am hoping that you are still together.

Cat, same goes for you.

Being married is a very difficult road; especially when one of the spouses is involved in an affair. There are so many feelings and emotions to deal with. My H and I had a fight tonight over money and our middle daughter just bawled. She clearly didn't want to go thru what she went thru last year. And frankly, neither do I. I am so tired of this. So tired of trying to please everyone and make sure that everyone in this house is happy. What about me? Does anyone care if I am happy? By the way everyone acts, my answer would be no. I want to be with a man that truely loves me. When I walk in the door I would like a husband to come to me and hug and kiss me. When I leave I would like him to do the same. I want a husband that reaches for my hand while we are walking, is that so much to ask?

Sorry for the hijack BI