You have come to the right place. We have all lived through what you are experiencing now. We are willing and able to help.
I don't have time to read through your entire thread. I need to get some sleep!! But I would like to give you some suggestions to start with. Not sure if others have told you any of this, so forgive me if I repeat advice you have already received.
First, get your hands on Michelle's Divorce Remedy book. It's a quick read... but skip right to page 124 and read through the Last Resort Technique. Then read it again. Then flip to page 1 and start reading.
You need to shift the emphasis of your life from her to you. Stop believing that your happiness is contingent upon her acceptance of you. It isn't and it should not be.
Go out and do stuff. Get a life. Join clubs, excercise classes, karate class, skydiving... sheesh the list is endless. Doing this will accomplish two things: Take your mind off of the pain, and demonstrate to her that you have moved on.
I don't have the ability to write any more, as my eyes are drooping. I will be around to continue to offer my support. Hang in there. We are all hurting here, but we are STRONG. And we will help.
