I am having the same issues. I so want to be able to talk to my best friend. It hurts double because I have lost my best friend and my H. It is so hard to stay patient and just wait but there really is not anything else we can do.
I have these bad thoughts every day. You just need to push on. Come read some posts and try to keep your chin up.
Hang in there like Suzanne said and keep us posted. From all I have read she is right the good starts to outnumber the bad.
