HI Bryan Thank you for your support. I am just finding all of this so hard. I am not sure what to do or anything. I keep telling myself to be patient and breathe (like I post to everyone else) however I have a hard time following my own advise. My MC said that it would take 6-8 weeks for him to miss me and not to expect to much before that time. And at that time he is just going to start processing everything that is going on and even then it could be a lot longer.
I think you are correct about him pulling back. He has told me before that he feels as if everything he has is because of me and he has given up and starting with nothing. He wants to get things for himself. This really upset me but I also know that a friend of his put this in his head a couple of months ago since he told me at the time and since he has mentioned it again I think it has been eating away at him all this time. It took me a while to figure this out so I just keep reinforcing how without him I will not have the house etc either so he can see that I do need him and not like this friend said.
I was also upset last night because our S told me that Daddy said he was getting a new house and he could go visit him there. Then he asked me if I was going with him. He is only 3 1/2 so he does not know what he is asking but it really hit me hard that he has mentioned a new house to our S. However he has told me he was looking at houses in the area so I knew this but hearing it come from our S it crushed me. Also how long can I expect him to live in the woods in a camper with no water etc when this is NH and it is starting to get very cold out. I guess I was just hoping on him coming home by that time.
So I am hanging in there and going to be very positive tonight when we do the swap of our S. At least we have this time and he seems to be extending it which if I was him I do not think I would do since he has not slept all day and needs to be in to work for 11 pm. So no matter what I take that as a good sign that he is spending those couple of minutes with me and our S. Not sure if it is to extend his time with S but I am there so I am using them to my advantage.
I am just having a hard time keeping all these positive thoughts when it is so easy to go over to the dark side if you know what I mean. (Sorry I am a Star Wars geek at heart)
