back to square -1 or -10000

[cat03]

I guess is like trying to drill/ask an insane person why he is insane when he himself doesnt' know what's happening to him.

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I can not expect him to do everything like I would
...anymore than he can expect that of me
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I only see my side, he is hoping so much that I understand but I sometime I just don't let. Well, i'm trying to, something ugly came up last night..sigh.. I asked about it.. then realized "hey, i'm not supposed to be asking questions!" and txted him to forget it, that we'll talk about it in the future (which was something he said at the begining, though later he was giving me answers on his own about that topic)

But even if I dont' believe the explanation he just gave me, I'll stop, no more questioning about that at all, and I hope that that becomes my modus operandi, that when things come up my mind will be trained to tell me "stop, let this be for now".

Still totally unconfortable about the $ we are giving her tomorrow, but, I'm giving my first leap of faith, I'm trusting him it is for the car repair, I've asked around and that is the price of repair. He just called me, asked me where the dr's office is for his appt today... he's been there 3 times in the past yr..it's 5 min from out home, and yet, he can't remember where it is, just like he can't remember the shop he went to one time. So here we go... putting the first brick on my trust walkway.