Colonoscopy is over, phew what a relief. I couldn't drink all of that crap, but finally decided it was enough because I've hardly eaten anything in days anyway. Started to lose it a little when nurse couldn't put the IV in right, but woke up feeling good. Just went home and napped and read rest of day.

Some new developments in the last two days. I'm still striving for detachment and not trying to get too caught up in it, but I guess they are baby steps.

We have reached a goal - communication from H has started after one complete week of nothing.

Complete transcript -

Monday

H: Can i have Sparky for a couple of days

Me: Yes ru ok

H: Im ok i hope u r too i have sparky bring him back thurs am thxs

Me: Im good give sparky kiss gnight 4 me

Tuesday morning -

H: Im going to take Sparky back today too many stairs here too much lifting Later

Me: Ok sorry didn't work out I will be home at one

H: Do u go for colon test tomorrow

Me: Yes ick

H: Good luck Have fun drinking that stuff

Me: Very funny veery funny

Then late Wednesday -

H: How did it go today R u feeling ok

Me: Feeling good today after test how is vol (hospital volunteer) work coming along

H: Physical for it next week I forgot check 199 for computer from dad 350

Me: I dont understand should i enter in qb

H: No I just could not fig what it was Goodnight Goodnight Sparky

Me: Sparky is giving u big wet one goodnight

OK this feels a lot like high school, but this is the initial contact from H. I think I did a good job - only responded and did not initiate. H does seem to show a little confusion - I don't know why he was telling me about a check he forgot he wrote.

But of course now I have to detach some more and not try to take it to the next level. But..... one of my problems has always been failing to ask for what I want.

So leave it alone or experiment?


In4ride
Me 50, H 55, M 17 yrs
1st Bomb Drop 12/7/03
Separated mostly in house
Come back together/H breaks back 9/04
Piecing, surgeries, recovery, H retires
2nd Bomb Drop 9/3/07 H moves out 20 min later