The key word is seems, its so hard to truly believe this is a real effort, I have put that belief in him before and it has turned out to be untrue, he makes the effort for awhile, and then bam. That is why it is a struggle for me this time, because i feel it is going to happen, but don't know when, and I think especially after going on this weekend if it does happen it will be even more devastating, because of the big effort that has been made. I could deal with it, if he comes to me and say you know its just not happening, I have tried and I just don't feel the same way I think we are done, but if he goes back to ow and does tell me, that will be pure evil, thats how I think it would be.
I am sorry if I am babbling and not making sense, s7 was up at 4:30am with being scared, and pretty much didn't go back to sleep!!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
