My W came over the house last night so we could go through a list of things in the house. We talked at length about us and why we are where we are. From her standpoint I let her down by not being the provider she needs. I have made some very poor choices and she lost the trust in me by not being straight with her. She repeated that she lost respect for me since our finances never improved.

She said that she was still in this M up until a few months before D-Day. It took her every ounce of strength to make the decision to separate and move on. She does not want our kids to live w/o their father but it became necessary to get away and "breathe" again.

I know many here will read this and feel that my W gave up on our M and should be here since we made a commitment to each other. I agree with that but there are times when a W just says "enough" and loses that feeling for her husband.

If she loved me enough, she would have stuck it out but I guess I must accept that my M is probably over. I will continue to have hope but I think there has been too much hurt and disappointment from which she will never get past.


Me: 41
W: 40
D5, S4
Bomb Dropped: 7/8/2007
Status: W has moved out with kids 8/25/2007