Hmm , Update.. that was me updating you guys , I think.
OK, here is the update on what has happened lately:..................................................................................
yup... NOTHING! I saw him literally for 1 minute to give him his mail, kinda drive by style. Before that We saw each other a week before my vacation so that is the first few days in Aug... so over a month... when we saw each other he gave me zero update on his trip, his family (I gave him gifts for them from me) etc. We had a great talk 2 Sat.s ago... I called him the following Fri. He was sleepy so it was blah... nothing since then.
At this point it is kinda strange and kinda obvious that he is not calling me for a reason... one he is probably not even aware of . My guess is that it is his way of dealing with the news that I am leaving and that I have said to him that the door is open on my side...
I asked some question to the folks in Japan about the job offer. One of the things I brought up is that I have spouse that would not move with me right away. I figure I should see how bringing a spouse works so that I can have that built in for H. THe way I see it ,he is my H and I will move forward accordingly. Whether he would ever reeneter the M or move to Japan is another matter entirely but I felt I should build the option in. I am kinda looking forward to telling H that I did that... I think it will freak him out a bit!
I am done though pretending I am single... too confusing for me for now. How he takes that... thats not my problem. I am not begging or twisting his arm, I am just showing that I mean it when I say the door is open.
any way..... time to sleep. I am still getting over a cold. At least there is no one to bother with my coughing at night!
brava
Me: 36 He: 34 no kids Married: 2000 He left: July 05
You are right. You said 'I have to give an H update' and I read 'I have to give H an update'. Dyslexia, old age eyesight, or poor comprehension. Pick and choose as needed.
I don't have any ideas how you could proceed other than the how you are. Would there be any advantage to having a legal S agreement to avoid liabilities while you are in another country?
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I am done though pretending I am single
How do you do that? Ironic though, had a real tough night with H last night and our(my) conversation included some of that verbage. That was in the middle of the night in between H shutting my truck off so I wouldn't leave, then H was going to leave, jeesh what a stupid night. I told H we are both so stubborn we should use that stubborness to work together. He said we could and then changed it to should have. jimineycripes, why is it so hard for him to see any pov besides his own? yeah, I asked him that too. I get the DB award, again.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
I am done though pretending I am single... too confusing for me for now. How he takes that... thats not my problem. I am not begging or twisting his arm, I am just showing that I mean it when I say the door is open.
I don't understand this. What do you mean?
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Hey brava...i just updated myself on your sitch. Sounds like you are doing well...and i couldn't be happier. You sound like you are in a very good place emotionally. I wanted to thank you for your response to my last post...sorry that it took so long for me to reply. Thinking of you!
I am now the proud owner of a macbook!!!! yes, after having the same laptop for 7 years i have gotten a new one... and i have gone the apple route. thought this was a good time for the change.
lmdi.. thanks for stopping by. it is good to hear from you. I have to catch up on your sitch as well.
amd; thanks . yes, I dont see any reason to approach this move as a door closing... at least not on my end.
nic, wcw: hmmm, that sounded cryptic the whole single thing. i guess my point is that i spent so much energy these last 2 years either trying to reel H back in or act like i was sooo ok and loving my new freedom: wedding ring on , wedding ring off: all based on what others, family, H would think. Now I just have decided towear it. I have decided I am not single and not looking . I have decided I am "coming out" in the sense that I am being honest about the fact that I would want to try again and do beleive it could work.
Yes, I am still lonely. Last time H and I cuddled was in Nov of last year. I was in LA on business and had a million memories of a trip to LA we took about 5 years ago... it sucked.
The difference is I am doing my thing according to my heart not acording to what I should do, or how not to avoid getting hurt or seeming like a loser or that I am waiitng for my H....
in the end, I am actaully waiting for my H. WIll I wait forever. Dont think so but am I waiting now? yes. am I living out my dreams and moving forward with my career and future: YES!!!!
If there is one thing I have realized is that we all have such different journeys in life. MY H needs to take his and I need to take mine.
I could use some *@%! cuddles and then some though!!!!!
brava
Me: 36 He: 34 no kids Married: 2000 He left: July 05
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