virginia,

Sometimes I still feel like this is all a bad dream.

Like I will wake up and my life will be back to the way it was.

H and I sharing our life together.

How did it all go so wrong? 2 years and counting... It's as if none of this is real... H's affair, all the lies, Ow, H signing the divorce papers..

Where did his love go? What is going on in his head to make all these poor choices?

I don't know what is going to take to make me feel better about all of this. Maybe when I can quit loving him.

K