thanks all. funny about the bottled water thing...I did that a couple of times, when I first started db-ing. I hadn't heard of doing it, just found myself doing it instinctively. it did help. I will never forget it, because that was the first major talk we had where I controlled my emotions...and that threw him off so much, he didn't. huge 180.
H did end up coming by, and I did head off to the gym. felt sooo good. he was really tired, really stressed, and had a headache. he called on his way here and told me about the headache...I asked why not put the visit off till tomorrow, I hadn't told the kids about him coming by, so no issues there. he said he really wanted to see them...really missed them. which is nice, because its good that he still loves them so much. they adore him, so were thrilled when he got here.
I did talk to him for a few minutes when I got back and was fine. even rubbed his traps for a minute before he left. thank you, endorphins!
overall still keeping my distance from him, still want to rant and rave and cry a little, but I can feel things subsiding a bit. the cookie dough might be helping. a friend and I are going to see another friend's new baby (brand new!) tomorrow and are bringing food...I'm bringing cookies, so am sitting here eating a yummy spoonful of choc. chip cookie dough. mmmm. just one spoonful, I'm being good, but ladies, isn't it amazing what a little chocolate can do?
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
