Sweetie our posts crossed!!!! Please do not blame yourself too much!! Oooh...i'm sorry if was too harsh. Don't cry... (unless you need it to release some fear and frustration...LOL
I'm sitting here with goosebumps because I sense all along that you still want this. It's ok. The hardest thing to do for us is to open up in a sitch like this. I see the things I see in your sitch because I've been there. I can tell you lot's which I feel might help you but I do not want to put it on the net. If you want you can give me your emailadress? (don't put the at sign in there it will lead straight to this place)
How are you feeling?? Are you a bit better? Please post again...I'm almost off to bed but i know i can't when you're crying over something I did... Sorry sweetie. I did not mean too. But maybe you crying hit something you knew but did not want to see??? HUUUGE HUG
