neither of us is strong, you are right Lin, I guess right now I'm just tearing us with questions that only bring pain.
Sometimes, I just dont' listen. He was trying to tell me last night "let me heal, i'm destroyed inside, when I find where I am in this world again you can look at anything you want (phone records) right now I want my privacy, I want space"
No, I'm not ready for the answers he's giving me, they tear me appart, I guess I was fooled for so long that now I want to know it all.
Detach detach detach, that has to be my new mantra, to let him come to me, because, honestly, that's the man I want, not one I entice/convince to love me, I want a man who loves me for who I AM, for what I am.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
