Now I've done it

[nephartiti]

Just checked the bank account. He's here in town again. Yesterday and today. I know I shouldn't speculate, but WTH? He drives 30 miles to come fill up his gas tank down the street, but he doesn't call to see the kids?

I've been reading some stuff in the MLC forum. Sounds a lot like my H. Looks like we might be in this a lot longer than I hoped.

I have been good though. Haven't called him even though I have been extremely tempted. Last night, I just wanted to hear his voice. I miss him so much. Sitting alone in the dark, the recent bad stuff starts to fade and I am left with wonderful memories of the love of my life. Then I wake up and remind myself that he is not here, and I am alone.