Frustrated and More Saddened #3

[Heimlich]

Stew,

W and I had a brief conversation yesterday (or maybe the day before). To preface, in April, she said it is absolutely, unequivicably over. You can't change. You won't change. I'm happier without you. Etc. She's been trying to help me logistically to pack/split stuff, which I've been appreciative of. Can't remember the seque, but I said something like, "well, at least you like me at least a little now. You hated me in April." She said something like, "not hated, but definately didn't like. but we're getting along better now." Said something else, but I'm blanking. A wee bit tired from work and moving.

Anyway, upshot is. Feelings can change. Hang in there. I'd say my odds aren't great, but there is at least a chance, I believe, today whereas two ro three months ago -- no effing shot.

She's been begging for space. Give it to her. My W has gone from saying on any occassion of bringing up the R, "I'm done. It's over" to "I just need to be away from you for a while" -- I repeat, "for a while". A small sign. Maybe a verbal slip. Who knows, keep the expections to a dull roar, but maybe, just maybe backing off is going to work. Hey, that's what OT keeps whacking me in the head for, right?

BD