WAW1978-Part 4

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I am still open to working on the M. Thats why I am really leaning to telling the MC that we are stopping "for now". I don't want to close the door.

But like many of you one here who are moved out and facing a true separation and possible D there is that chance that one of us or both us will be moved on by the time the other decides its time for them to fix things.

H has made it clear he is looking to date other people. I am not going to sit home knitting while he is out and about. As my Dad would say, "Pull up your stockings and stop acting like a Nancy"...so I guess the boob shirts come out of retirement...the wedding bands hit the safety deposit box and see what happens. As he clearly stated to me last night, he is fully separated and intends to flaunt his status around town. He knows I am ashamed of this whole mess but right now I guess its time for me to face facts.

I know that might sound spiteful but if he really wants to get out there and find someone else then why should I sit home and fret about it? I have to deal with the fact that I was the one who was unhappy to begin with.