Now I've done it

[nephartiti]

My H has not stopped giving me money either... YET. He is so unpredictable and covert, I don't know what to expect.

I sat with a L because I am scared out of my mind. When he left, at first, I thought I would beat him to it. He said he hated me, didn't want anything to do with me, blah blah blah.

I think I posted earlier how I was ready to do all the work. My intention, at this point, is to have the L prep orders for costody and child support. I intend to sit on it. If the money stops, I will act immediately.

I do NOT want a D. However, I do want to send the message that he does have a responsibility to these children whether or not he decides to be present. Money talks, I believe. Maybe it will be a wake up call to see how much money is going to be missing from his play money. He has not started managing his own money. He just takes what he wants. He's like a teenager with Mom's credit card. He feels there's no limit.

Basically, without an order, his crazy self can take the kids on an outing one day and not come back. Because he is the father, I could not do a darn thing about it, unless there is something in writing. Considering he hasn't seen his kids in over a week, and he hasn't called in 6 days, I don't think he really wants them right now. However, he always SAYS he wants them. He is unstable. Bottom line, I don't trust him.

I am walking a fine line between acting in faith or acting in fear. I honestly don't know what is best. Being dark, I don't want to make any moves right now. I'm not shooting, but I'm loading the guns.

He knows I've talked to a L. I did this early on and relayed to him the ballpark of money that would be expected for child support and the estimated cost of divorce. He's too busy in La La land to even acknowledge it.

S2 is feeling much better. Thank you.