Well I have been on a roller coaster of emotions this week, searching for hope among the debris of stories about what R are like after infidelity. I know deep down that some couple make it, but if we are all honest, those that flourish into better things versus those that just stick together either for the sake of the kids or other reasons, are few and far between - the threads on DB are testament to that fact.
I feel the window is closing on my marriage - unless she does something out of character and opens up, is honest, and assures me it is over before too long, I think I will walk away with my chin held high, having learnt a painful lesson, but having recognised that I kept my integrity, my faith, and my love intact through this experience. I will always love her no matter what, but I simply cannot or will not live the rest of my life with someone who so easily throws all my love away for the sake of an A with an ex. We will stay friends I am sure, and who knows what the future holds (no guarantees in life right), but right now, we are done unless something changes pretty quickly.
I want to thank everyone on here who took the time to post to me - at times I felt myself giving DB advice to others as well which has helped. I will keep DBing whatever the future holds because its the way to make the future better, and a reminder of the pain of a marriage break up. I am excited about my future - about the new friends I am now making, about the new hobbies / interests I have started, and of course,about meeting someone who will return what I have to offer.
I'll keep posting, and no doubt will still have my ups and down, but thanks again.
Me - 39 W - 33 M - 5yrs Bomb - 8/5 2007 Moving out - 9/8 2007
