I'm so glad you get it. I'm not sure I do completely. But it makes me real happy you do.
I noticed what she was talking about way back when we first got married. I attributed it all these years to her previous job. It seemed to me as in so many jobs that the motivation was to appear busy. Actually getting something done wasn't an issue. I thought she had carried that into self employment.
But it wasn't just work it was life.
Years ago she would get flustered at having to get done the most basic things "OMG I have to do the dishes, brush my teeth, take a shower, how can anyone expect me to go to work" She was this person who was always flying around busy but getting nothing done. Still is but not as bad.
I think I may have been wrong about where it came from.
I don't really get it too much but I sense it is really good.
Btw, dinner was on the table right when I got off work last night. I was shocked. This is a woman who has not cooked a meal our entire marriage and now dinner every night. Huh.
She has 7 siblings. The discussion she had over this was with her favorite and the highly successful one. But she likened herself to the lazy depressed ones. She has always tried to emulate the successful one but I think has discovered herself to be like the others. That distresses her. Soooooo?
The struggle to NOT DIE is where we suffer. The struggle to NOT LIVE is where we suffer. These are the realm of addiction for you are neither living or dying.
Most of us are addicted to suffering. (i.e., "I am NOT _______ ). Because we define and get caught up in BEING what we are NOT.
And if I might make a suggestion. Enjoy and encourage her growth. But also get busy being Who You Are... instead of being Who You Are Not. Or she'll outgrow you.
Oh Corri, I focus on personal growth almost every day. An occasional rut but I always snap out.
So a quick update. She's cooked dinner every night and made coffee every morning even though she isn't drinking it. That's more cooking this week than all the time we've been together put together.
This has really allowed me to focus on providing.
She's also really been taking care of my injuries and I can say it is different. To not need it and get it is pretty cool. It's all in the intent.
