Now I've done it

[nephartiti]

5 days. This is the longest yet. I'm feeling a little anxious. I'm definitely out of my comfort zone here. I still have lots to do, so I'm going to try to stay busy.

I did get WIC. At first I felt relieved and in control. That quickly went to me feeling angry that I am in a position that I have to go and get WIC. Meanwhile, he's taking $100.00 withdrawals every other day for who knows what. He doesn't even know what's going on here. We could all be on our death beds and he would have no idea. Here's what's ticking me off. I took 1/3 of his paycheck. That's to take care of four people. He gets the other 2/3 just for him. He's living it up, eating out, playing, and I'm wondering how I'm going to buy my S2 new shoes.

He is also driving around in the new minivan we bought for the KIDS. Meanwhile, the three kids are crammed in the back of my Saturn, no A/C, no tinted windows (only 2 go down), no breathing room. If I mention any of this, I get the same response. I am selfish. I am using the kids to control him. He needs to take care of himself right now.

I just want to shake him and say "WAKE UP!"

Sorry, feeling crabby and angry.