CVA - "B,B&B"

[Not Much Left]

yeah, not exactly, to be expected though.

Yes boob shirt was there but not too low.

This morning asked if she wanted to meet for lunch before I go out of town and she said "I dont know, I havent thought that far in advance"? Wow, minute by minute life is weird to me. But that is the way it has always been.

We have not been anywhere "alone" since the separation so maybe that is still it, I dont know.

Not going to push it. Was definitely in a bad mood about last night and then really nothing this morning.

Puddle, yes on the sex thing, I would get ticked, however, it was really because I did all the initiating so never knew if she wanted to do something or not so when I got the "hand", no not that hand, it ticked me off even more.

Unfortunately my mind has gone to the ever present "did I settle for CVA?" F#@k. I hate that thoght, it makes me feel small, helpless (reference to Night at the Museum, line by Owen Wilson), I dont like it!

Off on the road again, wish me luck. Dont really feel like going anywhere or doing anything.

C