Growing up is hard to do

[peaceful_spirit]

Thanks, Ladies.

I left the note for H last night. I haven't spoken to him since. He slept downstairs, then early this morning he left for Las Vegas. I did say goodbye to him.

Angelica, I was actually trying to focus less on me and more on him so that perhaps he can realize some things about himself. Maybe it sunk in, maybe it didn't. But either way, it was things I felt I needed to say.

I'm still feeling good about my decision. However, I had a few sad moments today. I know to expect them and to ride them. I just hope I'm strong enough to resist the next time he makes me false promises.

I feel better yesterday and today than I've felt in weeks. But I do miss him a little.

H wasn't ready to commit to this M. Maybe he never will. I'm not waiting around for him to wake up. If he wakes up one day, well that's a different story. But for now, I need to assume he won't and get on with my life.

That's how I feel today.