vacation is over, I am leaving

[limbo]

So H kinda confronted me today...I basically told him that I do want the marriage, however I just don't have the fight let that I used to...and that if he is or planning to back to ow that he needs to let me know, so that we can both just walk away.
I also said that for some reason that I don't why but I seem to be trying to sabatoge things, I don't know if its because I am trying to push things to see what happens or what.
He then said that maybe i want him to leave, I said that I don't.
Also he said that he is hoping the the retro weekend will help things...so that is a positive.