ok then here's my current decision..giving in without giving in completely...he does after all know that "that" means something to me...and though it's meaning is there for me...right now I don't know if it's there for him...thing is...he doesn't need "that" to be pleased....
ugh!!! life is to friggen complicated...now I know why so many people don't bother to get married anymore...it's a pain in the a$$... but then I suppose if h put about half as much effort in to the r as I have over the years...well that's me just blaming him again...(well [censored] why can't I blame him )
I dunno...guess he's gonna be a little squirmy this evening...I didn't let him know that the lawyer appointment has been delayed due layers being needed in court...
my new policy...well on most things...don't ask..don't tell..
not the way I want to be and I'm sure if things don't progress there will be another blow up...but is the way it has to be for now.
LL who knows that if h really tried it could work...but doesn't know if he will really try or tr just enough to satiate me for a bit.
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