I'd probably do the same. During my divorce I didn't sleep with anyone, but I did meet and develop a "teen-age crush" on the most gorgeous hunk (imagine Leonardo DiCaprio as a surfer with longer blond hair and a deep sexy voice). Not only was this guy handsome, but he seemed to share a lot of my values and thoughts about things. Anyhow, the last thing I'm going to do is tell my husband that this guy was more attractive (only in some ways) than him... shhhhhh!
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.